for now and the future
everything since the past
available for me
is to be alone
born into this world alone
unable to live in other brain and body
the only path I can walk
is to be alone
there is no way
I can expect others' understanding
without words, nothing can be convey
even with empathy, I cannot change a thing
being able to understand people
but unable to be understood from others
living alone
since the beginning
till the end
unable to expect nothing more
my...
.........
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I should not cling to the exception
the rarity that came to save me
a thing like that
having met once is already a miracle
I should not expect it
from any other people
in this vast, wide world
repeating the same things
hoping for one day the dream would come true
beliving in illusion of beautiful ideals
that can be nothing but maya
I should go
wake up already
see and accept things
as it is here, as it is now
leave all illusions
miracles won't come
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isn't that said
'leave all hope
and there would not be despair too'
isn't that the path
you decided to walk on
the greatest choice I would never regret making
5/1/56 22:31
