my,
I asked
"is all artist lonely?"
what is the answer
I wanted to know
since I'm little
I asked myself
'how am I different?
why am I friendless?'
because mother always told me
how her life is full of friends
and because
I feel lonely
I've never get the answer
I don't understand
I'm like this
how come people are so different
though I smiled
I laughed
I tried to get close to them
why I feel distance?
I feel like
I cannot give them
everything I have
I feel like
that is the gap
between us
I'm clueless
how to fill it
so, this is me
always irritated
so, if the answer of that question
is
"yes, artists are all lonely"
I'll accept it
the fact that I've to be by myself
-- another side --
I've friends
really,
though I cannot answer
why I still feel friendless
I can't give them all
but I can give as much as I can
though I never know
how long can I keep them
because of these gaps
anyways,
I surely know
that there are ones
I'll never let go
because these two
I can give them all
I never hold back
though I've a complex mind
"see me
this is me"
I trust them
that they understand
I trust them
I trust with everything I have
